My 3rd trip and longest stay in UK

I am back in London for the third time since my wife passed away in Jan last year.
Arrived here on the 24th March, evening.
I was here in July last year for about 15 days for my docdoter convocation in Liecester, together with my eldestbdoter and secondson.
I came again and stayed for two months in late Sept to Nov 2012 to see my youngestdoter who arrived in late August to do her ACCA in Birmingham. She will finish off in June and I hope to go back together with her.God willing.

This time around will be my longest stay..3 months at least .

I hope I can survive and my finances will hold....

A year has gone by...

Last Saturday 12 Jan 2013 marks a year in passing
of my beloved wife Hajjah Roshitoh binti Mustafa.
She left us on a Thursday morning at about 0740 hrs.
All my children less the fourth girl Azhreen was in Leicester, when she breathe her last breath.
Azhreen arrived back the next morning.
My son Azhran was feeding her sips of water till the last moment.
We knew that she was leaving us and she too knew it.
She was telling us on what to expect next, even when she would not be able to say anything.
I remember every moment of her last days and i was lucky i was around beside her.
My children too, dotted on her with the utmost devotions and my eldest girl Aerianee did the final bath on her together with the youngest Aereena.
She had been dutifully doing that when Tah did not have the energy to do it in her dying days. Well, Nanee is truly blessed because she had that opportunity.

We laid her to rest at Presint 20 Cemetery after Zohor prayers at Mesjid Putra.
I was lucky because i managed to organise a complete 7 nights Tahlil at my surau and the 100 days too.
At random in the year i did organise a few Tahlil for her, because she did request me to do it for her when she is gone.
Last Friday night 11 Jan 2013, i managed to organise a Tahlil for her and about 90 friends and family attended.
As i promised her, i will keep on organising a Tahlil in future as and when it is convenient.

Loosing a wife is not an easy matter.
Living without her too is not easy.
She took care of me for more than 30 over years.
I knew her since i was in Primary One and have set my eyes ever since then.
There is no way i can overcome all the memories of her...she was and will always be a part of me.
Now after every prayers without fail i will doa for her.
At every moment i keep on thinking of her.
Yes, many will say that Life has to move on...
Well...it is easier said than done......
Now i have my children to look forward too....
i know that they too have not overcome their grief.....
In my prayers, i pray that Allah Taala knows what is best for my future.
I know that i am being tested....I am just a humble servant..
What choice do i have...i just have to live with it...
My life is too short to object the challenges.....
When my wife was around...nothing bothers me.....she was always there...
Now....i can only hope and pray that i can cope up with the future...