Future Thoughts

It's been more than a week since i came back from my journey to the Holy Land and spending much of my time at the two Holy Mosque.
My 40 days was spent on performing the compulsary prayers with small doses of solat sunat.
Come to think of it, i have never prayed so much in the mosque in my life and spending so much time in the mosque.
I am sorry that i am not able to tell stories of strange encounters or interesting stories because i did not encounter extraordinary things whilst i was there and i was also not subjected to any challenges.
I too, on the other hand, had mentally prepared myself for any outcome and to just let it be...whatever the circumstances might be.
So i truly enjoyed the happenings there and observing the many colourful characters and behaviours of Muslims from all over the world.
I came back with a negative opinion though, and my answer on why Muslims cannot unite was exhibited in front of me.
I realised that there are so many types of Muslims that sometimes i wonder, whether they are truly Muslims.
But as i compare the millions there and the millions here, i am of the opinion that the worries of Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessing be upon him), is truly valid to this day. His umat is his most worrying point and he was thinking about them even on his last moment.
I term some of them as Idiots of the highest order.

I am back home, happy that i am not one of the many other umat Nabi out there..
I did not push anybody, i did not spit here and there, i did not throw rubbish all over, i did not jump over anybody's head..and the best part is that i am ever gratefull that i am not like some of them,
That to me is my lesson learnt whilst i was there...Thank God, that i am of a different kind of umat, who is more gentle and accomodating.
I am happy that i did not over eat and i did not waste food.
I am happy that i drank Zam Zam water to the maximum, one cup on the way in the mosque at every waktu and 3 cups on my way out...such so that by the time i got back to the hotel for makan, i was already full.
I am a healthy 86 kg as compared to 95 kg before.
I am happy that i did not have any other ailments except the compulsary Hajj cough.
I am happy that i could cycle 55.5 km yesterday, a week after i came back...
I am happy that i was not subjected to any challenges and was blessed with the best of health.
I am happy that i did not asked or berdoa for many things, but went there to show my appreciations that i am blessed to have been given the opportunity to perform my Hajj.
At Arafah, where we were told that, that was the best place to berdoa, or ask Allah Taala, i am happy to say that i did not do the obvious but only thank him for what he has given and only asked for forgiveness and to ensure that my Iman is always on the straight path, besides asking for the well being of my family.
I was too shy to ask for many more because i believe i am not fit to only ask but not doing enough...in terms of being a good Muslim.

I did not asked for specific richness or whatever, much to the dissapointment of my wife who handed me a piece of paper with a few request, before i started my doa.
I think she agreed with me after what i said in my doa and it did shed real tears, because i was saying it out from my heart.

My future thoughts is what happens next.
What will my future be?
The mabrur of the hajj is what happens to you after and not what happens whilst you were there.
Allah Taala is great and my doa now is for him to spare me unsolvable challenges...keep my Iman intact and keep my family safe.
It is easy to perform the Hajj, but it is harder to be a true Haji.